Tuesday, 30 June 2009


Its so hot today my feet may actually burn away from my ankles.....
Been in a mixed mood today was glad I had work to keep me busy. Been listening to alot of ampere and knapsack on the way too ampere made me cycle faster ...this weather makes it hard for me to think not good when your heads full anyway.
...... I love the way this band sounds disconnected yet together all at the same time.

Monday, 29 June 2009

lisa loeb...


I feel really frustrated, why do I beat myself up?.
In my eyes im never good enough at anything. I wonder sometimes if my lack of confidence is a direct result of how my brain functions or just of experiences I have had. I pick myself apart when others try to build me up.
I wish I didn't worry about every little thing, I want to take on all the worries of the world and its like I suck up every human emotion like a sponge, constantly wanting to help with any sort of distress or sadness in peoples lives. I wonder sometimes if Im way to soft and if I need to toughen up and close myself off. I don't think it is in me to be like this.
Life seems so hard when all you wish for in life is simple stuff like being treated nicely by people or gaining some sort of happiness from my daily routine.
I think the problem is I care to much.. but is this a problem? Or is it other people who have a problem not caring. Don't get me wrong I am a happy person who loves life I just wish sometimes I didn't think quite so much.

Sunday, 28 June 2009


my weekend consisted of...
damnation AD
new bike
Lovely guy

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

Why I love E.E Cummings

i carry your heart with me
i carry it in my heart

i am never without it
i am never without it

anywhere i go you go my dear
and whatever is done by only me is your doing my darling

i fear no fate
for you are my fate my sweet

i want no world
for beautiful you are my world my true

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

the sky of the sky of a tree called life
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart i carry it in my heart


I wish..
I had longer hair
I could play guitar better.
I was less clumsy.
I had more condidence.
I could really make a difference with my charity work...and my efforts were noticed.
I didnt get taken advantage of by friends so much...
I could win the lottery and make my parents lives a bit easier.

Monday, 22 June 2009


After reading my old blogspot from 2007 I felt rather depressed and decided to start a new one so welcome back to my world of vague ramblings. I aim to write something here everyday and keep it going as I noticed just how random my last page was..typical.